not my life style

Only you can make this decision. Take time to reflect. Wishing you happiness. God bless you.

thanks so much just don't know what to do know that it's just hard to deal with feel so alone

There is nothing wrong with you at all and your feelings are not different than that of others. As in a lot of things we will always have someone who feels what we are doing or what we think is wrong. This is absolutly untrue. You should go with what your inner feelings are. With anything never "Flaunt" it. As an example. Someone wins the lottery and they now have millions of dollars. How would people think if they were to rub their nose in it? What I am say is to be yourself and accept who you are. Remember that you are a wonderful person who has wants needs and desires. Is this differnt from anyone else? Absolutly not. You are who you are and I for one applaud you for your courage. Your choices are yours and need not be decesions must be based on how you feel and if some people can't handle it then THEY need to grow up

thanks so much i am really thankful for that and if you ever need to talk i am also here for you

why can;t i just live my life freely?

You can if you allow yourself to just take in the feelings you are having. Only you can make you happy. It dont matter what i say and anyone else. Sometimes we are more harder on ourselves than anyone can ever be. Just take time and breath it all in.